As I approach the beginning of three months until graduation, I am tinged with sadness. I remember all of the things I have done and are yet to do.
I feel a little strange now, as everyone keeps referring to us year thirteens as "the role models of the school". It makes me feel as though everyone is watching us students like hawks or something, it's a little disconcerting.
But in a way I'm glad that we are considered role models, because I can show others the same respect and love that this school has shown me over the past 4 or so years.
Now more than ever I understand the importance of "knowing yourself". As the end of life as I know it approaches, I now get why everyone is telling me "sort it out before you leave!"
Probably because after Graduation, we won't have others to rely on to sort out our stuff for us.
Things are now more confusing than ever. What I once thought was a life I wanted does not only seem so far off into the distance, it just doesn't seem so appealing anymore.... Really, I just don't want to be a slave to the unknown. I'm one of those people that enjoys being "in the know" and likes to have an opinion. This month though, this "attitude" has placed me in the middle of an EXTREMELY awkward situation.... I watched a relationship (which I had faith in, and I don't normally have faith in love seeing as my own relationship ended this month too) end very messily, and after all this time, I still feel sad about it. Considering one told me they were going to break up with the other waaaaay before they ended it, and I didn't warn them.
But all is not lost however, now that we're in the holidays, I have two weeks to be as crazy as I want and no one can tell me to stop. Damn it's good
Anyway, until next month, stay awesome!!!!
Tessa
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